We've made it (almost = )!

Well, we've made it to week 32!!! Only 4-5 more and they wouldn't stop the babies from coming. Then the real craziness starts! `; }
Elisabeth and Benjo are as fantastic as ever. Here is a photo of Benjo riding our vaccum.

I don't know if we'll ever have Internet again (well for a year or so), so sorry for the very sporadic posts.

The Season

The kids and I are visiting my folks this week. I completely swore off going anywhere after our move, but my resolve weakened with the arrival of December. My father mentioned snow (which ironically I'm not even that fond of), and the pining began. My third trimester starts with January, so I won't be going anywhere for a while after that. The more I pondered it, the more I decided that we'd come up. I love the feeling in my mom's house. I don't understand why I'm so drawn here, but I love it. Chasing Benjo around is pretty nuts. This place is so not mommy with small kid friendly, but it's home.

We were sad to leave our Christmas tree behind as it was quite the family endeavor this year. We misplaced our sophisticated-looking origami tree in the move, so Ben got a terribly fake 3' tree for ten bucks. We decorated it with some ornaments that I've had tucked away for years. About 12 years ago, Mom decided that I needed the sci-fi ornaments from Hallmark, so Lt. Commander Data, Dr. McCoy, Darth Vader, Luke Skywalker, Yoda, C3PO, and R2D2 mill around the olive wood nativity ornament in the center of our tree. I had some wavy gold ribbon from the free bin in Wymount and some tinsel with stars that I removed to place around on the tree. That finished the tree off pretty nicely. Initially, I felt a bit heretical and un-Christ centered for having such a tree - especially when we plugged the lights in and heard Darth say, "The force is strong with you Luke, but you are not a Jedi yet." But, when I started thinking in terms of the Plan of Salvation, the Savior's central roll in that, and the dark/light side world in which we live, it seemed metaphorically a better fit than the the refined, coordinated tree I usually envision. So, we have a hot Star Wars tree.

It's nice to have Internet access again. I've come to see it as a necessity, but our finances have forced me to more carefully distinguish true necessities and luxuries. Our life-imposed visual media fast has forced us to evaluate how we spend our time. We enjoy playing more games, getting more sleep, and reading a little more. It's actually kind of good for me not to have the distraction. My children need me right now more than ever and we're just trying to gear up and brace ourselves for the arrival of the twins. But oh how I've missed Google!!!

Disruption

We don't have Internet service yet. Sorry, I probably won't post for a long time. Sorry for the anticlimactic blog!

Mean Witch

This is the earliest I've ever finished a Halloween costume! E has wanted to be a "mean witch" for the past three months. I kept waiting for her mind to change, but she is my determined little woman. I'm trying every chance I can get to encourage her independent decision making (since it's such a struggle for me). To be honest, I was really releaved that she wanted to be something out of the norm from our daily enactments of princess stories and Charlotte's Web. But, I also feared that she would change her mind as soon as I went to the effort of making a costume.

After testing her resolve in numerous ways, we finally buckled down to design/assemble her costume yesterday. I was trying to compensate for neglecting her with reading and packing. She was a great little helper. Still not sure the motivation behind her choice, but isn't she cute?!?! She wore the dress all day ; ).

Out of Commission

Our (new) computer is dying so we must send it away to the hospital. I do NOT recommend Gateways. (We have already returned another one.) Sorry if I don't respond/post for a while.

Sorry for the Suspense!

It's been a nutzo month:

• Ben resigns.
• We go "home" to interview.
• Jobs offer... Offer from Job W (for wilderness) is 9K higher than offer from Job L (for LDS). Interesting thing is that the benefit package from Job L makes up for the gap.
• We lean toward L (which re-enters as a contender by offering a location closer to family - a given for Job W but unheard of for new-comers to Company L).
• Job W (knowing that they are loosing us) comes back with 10K more. L's benefits don't fill the now 19K gap!
• We pray, deliberate (for the fourth time), and bid adieu to thoughts of living "comfortably."
• We sign on with Company L - which appears to be better for Ben professionally and for our long-term goals.
• I cry - Me: Can't we have it all - the right job and the right pay? God: No, the other is dirt in the proverbial conference bucket. Me: Shucks
• I start to get over it.
• We pack.
• We move - at month's end.

I try to keep our whereabouts off of this blog, so I hesitate to say where we are moving. Let's just say we've gone a very circuitous route to end up 400 miles or so from where we began! We won't see much of the snow though. You can guess our whereabouts through "comments." I won't post your guesses but will respond via email. Sorry for the hassle.

Thanks for your prayers - though I may need them now more than ever as this is not a place of fond memories for me. Guess I'm going to get rid of some baggage. More than anything, we are grateful to have a stable job doing what Ben was meant to do.

PS In an effort to "unwind" in all of this, we've become addicts of The Office. But shhhh, we're still on Season 2! We love TV on DVD... now we have power over what/when we watch!

Limbo

Well, we've had a great interview trip and have been able to visit with all of the grandparents and several "aunties" and "uncles". Life is good. But we don't yet have any answers. I feel as confused as ever, but we'll just wait to see what the final offers are and what feels right then (hopefully something will).
My brother got lost for several dark hours on the Alaskan tundra on his caribou hunt this weekend. I'm very grateful to have him home (especially since he was hauling oodles of raw meat and was a prime bear target). He relayed that the experience caused him to reflect on the uncertain aspects of his life and what he wants. I wonder... will he propose? ; ) Just teasing Ry. No pressure!

Unemployed

Well, my husband is unemployed as of yesterday (by his choice). Long story, but I'm proud of him for having and upholding his code of ethics. Surprising how many people think that's ridiculous though.

I keep remembering being at my stepgrandfather's funeral and how the first thing that every person said about him is that he had integrity. That's the first thing I associate with his memory. I'm learning that his brand of integrity doesn't just come, it has to be earned.

I'm sure things will work out from here, but it's kind of scary... especially with twins on the way! We're just grateful that we still fall under the student umbrella. There's great security here that we're a bit scared to leave.

All-Day-Sickness

I've got it (of course). Lost 18 lbs w/ E, 10 lbs w/ B, 8 lbs so far. Lovely. Gross. Arg.

Sweet Ben makes smoothies for me every night. Finally found one that soothes the savage intestines:

Soothie Smoothie
(Ginger Lime Apple)

1 sweet apple (mmm Fuji)
1 lime (cut peel off along one axis - leave some)
3/4" chunk ginger
1.5 c ice
1 c milk
1/3 c sugar

Put ingredients in blender in whatever form your blender can handle, zap 'em up, enjoy!

Mmmmm!

Both twins are still there. No vanishers! Yah! What are we going to do!?!?!? People watched us juggling Benjo in church last week and laughed at the thought. (Hopefully they'll stop laughing and start helping come March. ; ) And yes, once again.... this was a deliberate decision... or so we thought. Heavenly Father just had to thicken the plot with two!

Any suggestions on a great 8 passenger vehicle with excellent fuel efficiency*, reliability, and whatever else is desirable in a ride? Of course, the Sienna comes to mind, but I keep thinking there has to be some angle on this decision that I haven't thought of (BTW: Suburban's out - too gasy and I'd be too big a hazard behind that wheel).

I'll post photos again someday when we have a full-functioning computer... maybe November? = {

PS In lieu of the book I know I must write but fear I never will, I've started an additional blog. It is something I feel strongly about but is definately a large work in progress. It'll be accessible under "projects" in the sidebar.

*I do realize that at this point "8 passenger" and "fuel efficient" are mutually exclusive, but I have to dream!